Sunday, October 28, 2007
recently had a very interesting conversation with my 3 great frds in hall, which entails lots of coding - level 1 to 2, swearing, funny topics and loads more confusion.
there is one particular code Mr Vassell himself created - newspaper. ahahha i wont reveal the meaning but since then i find it fun to update my newspaper and see whats the reactionary headlines of the other papers are like.
oopss... nabei...i leaked the meaning out liao. hahaha
just on sat, i had stayed up whole nite to do projects with same nice SDEmates at SDE. it was fun, and yet i was aslp for 40% of the time... too tired... forgot to rest more before tt...sorry guys.. realised i not much help.
and at that moment, i asked myself. would life in nus be different if i hadnt joined hall in the 1st place?? not that i have complaints... but man must reflect and improve ma...
you know the ans? hahaha of cos it wont be different... i so slack. so lazy... its somethg in me that has to change in order for life to improve for me...
kao... im so whimpy... rather admire pple who can meet deadlines... take up responsibilities... talk and walk at the same time... i have serious character flaws...where to find the cure?
look within and you shall find the ans.... the saint always say. nabei, talk cock... i look at myself and i see fats in layers. fuck... fat also a flaw... fuck fuck fuck.... how to jian fei?!
oh and i realised i love sepak so much these days...im simple la. have a good game like last thurs and i am happy. i love it when i play with a good tekong like gabs cos i get to kill like nobody and get the limelight...but of cos need to improve on touches and position..
but if i get a fucked up game where i had to play on the right side instead and train with the fresh ones, i fucking tulan and hated the captain. he innocent la... sports ma... sure got pple like me who thinks he is good and wanna play with pple who can develop his potential. and its frustrating cos you think you are good, but others dun think so. then it gets to be a motivating factor... or a demoralising one.
now not like before... train everyday for dragonboat... can be very emotional if things dun go my way... like when 老师 say i hao lian in the team, i cry like ah gua. nowadays i sort of have no heart in most thgs except my work... and yet i cant get to it now that i have to do something else which i have to love if not books will be my enemy...
my backache is back... im stupid... went to play IBG in 2005 to impress gals just 2mths after my operation... i know my back slipped again during that match... i just dint say or admit... now i cant do anythg without feeling the pain... and its quite there when i jumped umpteen times during sepak...
wahhhh i talked so much ar hahaha swee la... felt like ranting all these for a long time. basically its all bad stuff but hey! cb i am known for my optimism and i wont let myself down on that, among other thgs that i already had.
ok play game play game...
The Aspiring Better Man
@ 10:36 PM
