Dun gei gao, be cavalier!

i believe.

2007-11-23T00:07:00.000-08:00

From Vsrabbit's blog:

I believe that one of these days, we can suan one another again just like in the past

I believe that one of these days, we will get to study together again

I believe that one of these days, we will call one another up and have lunch in the arts canteen again

I believe that one of these days, we can sit by the dam, gaze at the stars, talk cock and sing songs together

I believe that one of these days, we will call one another up for dinner and supper, just like in the past

I believe that one of these days, we will be playing mahjong on the same table, at the same spot, again

I believe that one of these days, very soon, we will be able to clear the misunderstandings and the differences between us

I believe that one of these days, we can bare our hearts to one another again

I believe that it can be done, not because of me, but because of you, you, you, you and you. =)

well... ask me what are the differences we had, i dun even have the vaguest idea. maybe just ego clashes, and hurt prides. too proud to say anything, too lazy to do anything.

thats all. if there is a chance for us to reconcile, maybe nows the time. yy's going china for a year... and u are leaving for sep in august rite?

damn...im to be blamed for this frdship too, or wats left of it.

just hoped it can be repaired. let us take heart.

blog blog blog

2007-11-16T14:08:00.000-08:00

wahhh seems like everyone's in the mood to blog ar.~~

hahahha dortmund manager blogs, dota king blogs, my dearie blogs, and now i cant fall behind, can i?

hahaha i blog, you blog everybody blog blog.

hmmm 1st on the agenda of blogging is to show gratitude to my dearest lover - jeannie yee. yes you my dear, stop chuckling to yourself. really a great woman she is...to take care of a sick ass like me, with bleeding ass prob and a tendency to fever at nite. she waited alone outside NUH for me to get treatment leh!i mean, i inside slping away, and she outside shivering. im really touched for u to be ard dearie. i promise, there wldnt be a day i wldnt go places with you, there wldnt be a single moment i will frown at any of your inconveniences to me, cos i certainly inconvenienced you that day. love you from the deepest of my veins. my blood runs and ticks for u. not only are you patient, and your naggings are so true to the point its hard to swallow. hee... i swear i wanna kill you just to shut you up, but u wont cos you want the best of me, and i appreciate it deep deep. how to tell u i love u from now on? rember ur naggings, put it into action, and earn the trust and respect i crave from u. then we progress again. ok dearie? willing to walk the distance with me? hee...

ok ok... mr dortmund, vomitted finish liao bor? hahaha seems everyone likes to comment on how they are as friends to others. well, since emo is the emotion prevailling, i shall be too.

hahaha ok i must really thank dortmund for waking benitez to do his team sheets, training schedule etc. really went out of his way. dunno how to thank him properly face to face, cos we both behaving so much like gay alr. hahaha, the fact is i hardly ever reciprocate, cos you are so independent la. ok i know how, you ask me do stuffs i will never say no thats a promise. but no raping edlina cos u say raping very traumatising for victims, so to spare me, not her, from a scar forever, pls dont ask me to do tat. hahaha anythg else is fine.

well, as you have done for ur bro, i will also +100 to you my bro, and maybe -3000 hp for myself for not following ur advice la. hahaha...

life is as sucky as itself, but without friends like dota king, vassell and dortmund, plus my dearie, there arent anythg else to look forward to.

i've been thinking of the phrase,"wat doesnt kill you makes you stronger". makes sense, but think abt it, like a chronic disease, the killing part takes a long time then how? by the time you reach the part where you can say you have survived, how long has passed? days? months? years?

i think in order for the phrase to work at its best, go head 1st into the crisis early. know thy weaknesses, and strengths, and mistakes and merits, and pick yourself up and do wat edison did. you try again. there just arent enuf time to waste waiting for things to happen.lifes too short, really.

feveer

2007-11-14T09:01:00.000-08:00

i hate fever...

i better eat properly from now on..

sepak my love

2007-10-30T10:14:00.001-07:00

sepak i like...just got back from a great great rewarding training...

why? i received alot of balls i wouldnt have dreamt of getting to. and i juggled 50 balls before i end the training. makes me feel complete.

i shall do that every training..

but come to think of it, i quite pissed of, not the game aspect, but the pple.

fuck... i invite you guys over to play with us at this court. and you all dun want just cos my team has rookie in it. what? you all were not rookies before? stop being so chee bye la. play to your max, we never ask you to let water. if you are good, then u win. if you lose, dun fucking kp.

i mean, we all progress as a team ma, you wanna play with only the good ones, so when do we play against them? we get left behind? sportsmanship is more than when on the court... off the court requires plenty of it too.

so get your idea tog. fucking play the sepak game, not the chao chee bye elitist sepak.

fuck off la. chao chee bye.

ok but i still quite happy with my training today... hee.

broke but happy!!!

2007-10-30T10:09:00.000-07:00

yes my dearie bought me a ds lite in return!!!!

hahahha so happy la now we dun have to argue over who gets to play.

the untimely arrival of a new form of distraction, yet who give a shit.

i can play this all day and nite and hope the passing grades fall from the sky.

hahaha dun care.. my life as it is has nothing to aim for.

so lets open that gorgeous red matted dsl and play till my heart's content... and concuss.

i love you dearie! you make me do stupid things that always has fun written all over it.

i like the way u forced me to spend all my money... but ultimately ends up either on our stomach or our thighs.

muack!

newspaper of others

2007-10-28T22:36:00.000-07:00

recently had a very interesting conversation with my 3 great frds in hall, which entails lots of coding - level 1 to 2, swearing, funny topics and loads more confusion.

there is one particular code Mr Vassell himself created - newspaper. ahahha i wont reveal the meaning but since then i find it fun to update my newspaper and see whats the reactionary headlines of the other papers are like.

oopss... nabei...i leaked the meaning out liao. hahaha

just on sat, i had stayed up whole nite to do projects with same nice SDEmates at SDE. it was fun, and yet i was aslp for 40% of the time... too tired... forgot to rest more before tt...sorry guys.. realised i not much help.

and at that moment, i asked myself. would life in nus be different if i hadnt joined hall in the 1st place?? not that i have complaints... but man must reflect and improve ma...

you know the ans? hahaha of cos it wont be different... i so slack. so lazy... its somethg in me that has to change in order for life to improve for me...

kao... im so whimpy... rather admire pple who can meet deadlines... take up responsibilities... talk and walk at the same time... i have serious character flaws...where to find the cure?

look within and you shall find the ans.... the saint always say. nabei, talk cock... i look at myself and i see fats in layers. fuck... fat also a flaw... fuck fuck fuck.... how to jian fei?!

oh and i realised i love sepak so much these days...im simple la. have a good game like last thurs and i am happy. i love it when i play with a good tekong like gabs cos i get to kill like nobody and get the limelight...but of cos need to improve on touches and position..

but if i get a fucked up game where i had to play on the right side instead and train with the fresh ones, i fucking tulan and hated the captain. he innocent la... sports ma... sure got pple like me who thinks he is good and wanna play with pple who can develop his potential. and its frustrating cos you think you are good, but others dun think so. then it gets to be a motivating factor... or a demoralising one.

now not like before... train everyday for dragonboat... can be very emotional if things dun go my way... like when 老师 say i hao lian in the team, i cry like ah gua. nowadays i sort of have no heart in most thgs except my work... and yet i cant get to it now that i have to do something else which i have to love if not books will be my enemy...

my backache is back... im stupid... went to play IBG in 2005 to impress gals just 2mths after my operation... i know my back slipped again during that match... i just dint say or admit... now i cant do anythg without feeling the pain... and its quite there when i jumped umpteen times during sepak...

wahhhh i talked so much ar hahaha swee la... felt like ranting all these for a long time. basically its all bad stuff but hey! cb i am known for my optimism and i wont let myself down on that, among other thgs that i already had.

ok play game play game...

Bragging rights

2007-10-28T16:57:00.000-07:00

i dun say doesnt mean i dun mind.

you win, you brag. I win, i get bragged upon.

whats the matter? need to like tat not?

i think bragging rights are earned, not taken for granted.

yes... i know im a rookie in the eyes of you both. then again, i swear i got better.

so quit treating me like im a punching bag~~~ i win with my skills, not LUCK. Not TAI KOH.

Definitely not cos my uncle is the referee...

haahahah ok but friends are like tat, we dun dwell on this and become enemies.

we play more, and kao pei each other more, and become better frds.

hahaha tts the fun of being guys and not petty gals.

Im back!!!

2007-08-28T13:01:00.000-07:00

Back it is!

im tired so i'll make it brief.

I found the love of life and her name is Jeannie Yee Jie Ying.

Shes the one.

hahaahha short ar. cos for love, it is simply that simple.

Dun bother thinking too much or ponder over things unnecessarily.

You wanna love, go ahead and do it. Fail, at least you've tried.

But succeed.... hmmm its a bittersweet feeling. Nothing in the world feels like it.

At this point, my life stabilizes. No more confusion, no more need for trial and errors.

This is it.

You are the one, stop doubting it. Cos only you will read my blog. hahaha.

dearie, lets toast to more vivo-city-water-wading days! more rolling wok dinners/lunches!

more movies and sleepless nites due to horror movies! more breakfasts at Long john silver!

more more more kisses and hugs.... !!!

hahahha i sounded like a boy who fell in love for the 1st time. well... its been a long time anyway.

good to be back, with you and with my life.

no more distractions. only you.

gdnite.

Photos of my sole supplier of TLC

2006-10-30T20:43:00.000-08:00

Love... an elixir.

2006-10-30T20:26:00.000-08:00

Down with fever again.

I knew.. i always know... that gluttony will kill me.

But still, i ate 1 McSpicy (its so tasty!) plus 1 sundae plus ice tea for supper at 4am.

The next morning, i ate nasi lemak for breakfast at 8am.

Wats wrong with me?!!

Anyway... vomited. then diarrhea (till now i still dunno how to spell this word.). then fever followed.

wanna die by 6pm alr. Still managed to go out of my room to watch YOU performed. So glad that i did, u were beautiful.

Then i went back to die and moan and flip ard on my bed, before u came back and shower me with so much TLC that i almost drowned in bliss.

haha... fever has no fight for love. take note.

went clinic, see doc, 38.6 degree celcius, injection, cab back, and i went to slp. all the while u were there.

when i woke up, porridge. bought from far far away where u botherd to walk there and back to buy for me, although uncle vincent's stall will be more convenient. hahaa.

but it tastes so great, with TLC as primary ingredient.

Then u sat there, watching over me the whole nite. even slept on my room floor just so that u can carry on supplying TLC to me.

And i woke up now, seeing u on the floor, snoring away, looking real tired....

and i thought to myself: I heart you!

hahaha...

from a sick bf's pt of view - u scored 95/100. 5 pts deducted for not allowing me to eat another char siew Su. hahhahaha...

U are such a gift. i will treasure u.

thank you dearie.

in great debt!

2006-10-30T20:17:00.000-08:00

Dun wanna harp on it.

But since having a blog is about announcing my life to the world, then i shall just mention it by passing.

I got into an accident. (Dun worry im fine..)

Summary:

- Saturday Evening
- Me, dearie, Huihan and darius.
- Dinner at Bedok 85.
- I drove.
- Happy and joyous day.
- After dinner, darius's place to watch soccer.
- wanted to park at blk307a.
- height limit 1.9m.
- Lorry's acceptable height limit: 2.0m.
- bumped into the height barrier
- panicked.
- reversed without checking.
- toyota camry behind. super new.
- bumper dented, headlights scratched.
- trouble.
- lorry not mine, my father's employer's.
- cant claim insurance, not him who drives.
- jialat.
- borneo motors quotation.
- 2.3k.
- borrowing from frds.
- took it upon myself.
- will work hard to earn it back!!

end of story.

hahahhaa next time i free then upload the bloody camry's photo la.

ps: my lorry not a single scratch. i will buy one next time.

hahahaa... its over anyway!

Cracks.

2006-10-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

Biscuit cracks, mirror cracks, Butt Cracks.

And it has to be my r/s that cracks too.

Same old story with me, different reactions with her. What the.

How? GOd tell me! how much u want if i sell u my laziness and sleep disorder? and pls sell patience to me pls.

and even then, the cracks might not be healed. cracks run deeper than wat can be seen.

None of us started on this with a clean slate, but how are we gonna make do with the old stains?

Keep on licking them? eeeeuuuwwww~

anyway, even if i stop slping late, stop being nua, stop being fat and bald, who knows wat else is there to criticise?

love, when strong, is mama-lemon detergent. it washes every stubborn stains away.

but may i ask, are we even willing to go to the kitchen and wash dishes yet?

Blue Leg Haze.

2006-10-09T23:27:00.000-07:00

Bloody haze.

Detrimental to health and emotions. Flaring tempers all around, amidst coughing individuals and sneezing taxi uncles.

Indonesians, take care of ur forest can? u wanna play fireworks, make sure the smoke stays, not stray.

149 PSI? wat fuck...had to be on a saturday when i go shopping with jeannie. wat fuck.

Almost died tat day.

Pru-Jason

2006-09-20T03:09:00.000-07:00

PruSave. PruInvestor. PruShield. PruLife. PruJason.

A Pru-Career.

PruJeannie. Pru-ERC. Pru-Sepak. Pru-Sheares Hall. Pru-Cap 4.2.

Pru-Story of my life. hahahaha

SNDD~ Singapore National Day Dinner

2006-09-16T13:05:00.000-07:00

Hee....

Here are some pics i took with mei nu. can spot the lover? hahahaha.

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mahjong...

A fairly harmless game of wits and endurance...

a game that promises fun and fortune...

a very enjoyable game that can be played for family fun or at a frds' party...

a common sport at sheares hall too...

but for all the positivities...

it is a sure way to piss off your girlfriend too!

try it!

* tiles and tables each sold separately.

PS: Keep out of sight from gf age 20 and below.

Sales Representative... Do u look down on them? Or are u afraid?

2006-08-30T01:26:00.000-07:00

Run.

Run as fast as u can, cos u know u cant resist us.

U know that once u take in a breathe of our honeyed, ultra-sweetening + PI PA GAO-tasting words, u will fall for it. and falling for it means paying for thgs u might need.. or u might not.

So run! why do u still stand there waiting to be "tok" ? wat? u sensed tt im sincerEly trying to sell u somethg useful?? huh? seriously? sure or not? I know where i come from when i took up insurance, somethg tt everyone needs but not everyone wants. But i also understand when it comes to sales, pple are scared. Pple are afraid cos sweettalkers are not to be easily trusted.

So why dint u run? y?

becos u are my da jie and i thank u for all the support to me in this. Family is wat u need when new path just don't look like the right path at all. dark and scary. but i take heart in the encouragement from u.

thanks! love u!

Time, tunnel and light

2006-08-23T01:05:00.000-07:00

I stand here, empathising with u, knowing that it is difficult to walk out of the tunnel filled with fond memories and sweet images, watching as u so desperately clinging onto watever things that can keep u from losing grip of the past, yet time ruthlessly shoves u forward, into, apparently, more uncertainty and despair.

But is there only darkness and despair for u when time shows u the way forward? is there no 1 flashing a torchlight at u, urging u to place ur trust in him, and take ur slow step towards him, however tiny the light maybe?

This is a journey of ur own. To pluck up the courage and walk forward, or remain stationary, i cant decide for u. wat i can do, and i will do, is wait. wait and wait and wait. and maybe seduce, entice and attract u to come towards me. hahahaha...

Im ok! as long as i still feel its worth it.

Insurance Start-up Cost

2006-08-19T23:16:00.000-07:00

im poor. After fulfilling insurance adviser's entry requirements, im on the brink of bankruptcy.

this is why:

Entry Requirements: Pass Mod 5 and Mod 9 at Singapore College of Insurance.

Cost per paper: $85

No. of attempts for M5: 3

No. of attempts for M9: 2

Total costs: 85 x 5 - (85 x 2) = 255 dollars.

I wasnt counting in all 5 attempts cos the 1st 2 attempts of both M5 and M9 each were supposedlu covered by my agency once i submit my 1st deal. sianz cos i still have to find $$ for the remaining 255 bucks.

Oh well, i have passed it anyway. so wat the fuck la. fuck it. money come money go. tts the way of life.

isnt it?

hahahhaa... still got 1 paper to take before i can sell health insurance, HI mod. Once i passed tt, i'll be able to advise on health insurance and riders. I believe tts even more important than death and TPD (Total and Permanent Disability). Death by accidents are lesser in numbers than death by illnesses and health issues.

Often than not, patients suffer a prolonged period of treatment before they eventually recover or pass on. In either case, treatment, hospitalisation, medicine, surgeries, and all misc. peripheral costs all amounted to a hefty sum, to be shouldered by patients' immediate family and friends. They sure die la, together with the patient. Then how? Where to find $$? Plan early rite? but there are pple who scold us insurance advisers as $$ grabbers, until they are faced with fucking $200k bill then gd luck liao la. Yes it is human nature to escape from the possibility of contracting maybe cancer or AIDS or wat fuck. At the age of 22, i also would not be thinking of the end since my life is still at the beginning. U think insurance is a product thats out to cheat pple of their $$?? think again! how many pple were grateful to the lump sum of $$ to treat their loved ones when catastrophe strikes?

Come on, health is important. Other than taking care of our bodies, whenever we can, we should place good and reliable safety nets on the possibilities. Murphy's law applies remember?

Then of cos i have vested interest in persuading pple to buy insurance from me. I earn commissions la. Or else u think this is charity ar? but the commission come from my company, i dun take ur $$ ok? at least not directly la.

But i truly believe in the merits of the products i sell and the company i chose to work for. I believe in insurance and so should u, u cynical miser.

No need to buy from me la, fuck. just go and buy.

Maiden post...

2006-08-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

A brand new life. Marked by a brand new blog.

Insurance. Jeannie. Real Estate Marketing / Finance. C409.

Fresh committments, and potentially fresh directions in life.

How nice!

Old priorities remain:

Mama, Papa, Jie, ah hiok, ah yap, the gu-gu brothers, Blk C sheares hall, old frds like weilin, and of cos my dear health.

seems like i have a pretty tight schedule on hand. lets get to work!!

0607 academic yr here i come!!!